Sometimes I wish I could change the world

I am not one to think that the things that I say or do can change the world.  I don't really expect the things I do will make such a drastic difference.  But I do believe that one positive step in the right direction will cause a small ripple that will cause a bigger ripple and so on and so forth.

For the last two weeks I have been posting videos and letters on my facebook profile from different celebrities reaching out to young kids in the LGBT community trying to give them hope and telling them not to give up.  I know in the grand scheme of things especially in the lives of these kids I am no one, less than no one, but I have read the reports and cried.  I can't imagine how terrible it must be for someone to feel that their only recourse is to take their life when they still have so much life to live.  Having just faced my own bought of crippling depression I know its terrible, but no matter how bad it got I never felt like I needed it all to end.  I wish I could reach out my hand to them, tell them that it will get better.

They will get past these difficult years and find people who love them for who they TRULY are, not the people they have to pretend to be to make it through the day.  I am lucky enough to say that my closest friends, some of the most amazing people I have ever met, also happen to be gay and lesbians.  Although I grew up in an extremely gay friendly household no one could have guessed just how many of mine and my sisters friends would end up coming out as we matured or how that circle would expand to include their friends and friends of their friends.  I am now quite proud and happy to say that a good 50% of our friends are gay or lesbians.  I can honestly say I wouldn't have it any other way.  I love my friends I love my lifestyle.  Someone who doesn't accept that facet of my life, doesn't accept me.  And thats the way it should be. 

All I can say to those kids who lose hope is that it'll get easier, there are more people like me out there, tons and tons of us.  They'll find friends who truly love them and appreciate them for all their little idiosyncrasies - making sure every single person has a drink and then some before they sit down; their crazy sayings "Lo Dije!", "Puerka!!!" ; share their passions - Cranfording, Kitsch, Buffy til we die! and of course the craziest and funnest theme parties the world has ever seen.  But really what they'll find is the family they choose, the family that if they just make it through those hellish four years will be waiting for them with open arms and a cocktail.

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