So I did. My way.
Now, let me preface this by saying, I know I am not ready to date. My friends would say that I am a serial monogamist and while I have always bitched and moaned about being given this label at the end of the day I couldn't really complain. In the last 12 years I have been in 5 long term relationships one right after the other. I think SLP may finally have broken me of that habit. For the first time ever, I actively do not want be with anyone.
But back to the topic at hand, how did I follow the Dr.'s orders. I did a trial on Chemistry.com. My trial is about to expire and can I say that its not a second too soon. Are there some generally decent guys on there, yes there are. A small part of me wishes that I was ready for more but that is what has made it so abundantly clear to me that I wasn't. No matter how good looking, great catches or nice these guys were, I wasn't having it. Now mind you, I didn't meet any of them in person it was all kept online, I didn't want to raise anyone's hopes when I knew deep down that I wasn't ready for more. Most of the men on this site are for lack of a better word BIZARRE. I know that there are different flavors of ice cream for a reason but sweet baby Jesus. The profiles, the photos, the tag lines. I know I am not perfect and I shouldn't sit here and judge but I also don't profess to be god's gift and most of these men think that they are just that, which is quite frankly ridiculous.
Honestly, I think when I am ready to date I may just take my sweet time and do it the old fashioned way.
2 comments:
Yep, I agree with you on that one. Bold move on your therapist's part. There has to be a happy medium between holing up and swearing off men for awhile and putting yourself out there so quickly. Hopefully he will assist you in finding that because the two extremes are definitely not good right now.
Oh my gosh, take it from a serial online dater - there is NOTHING like meeting your spontaneously...out on the street, in a concert, at the library, at the supermarket; online dating is soooo overrated and there are so many negative things I could say about it. I'm sure there are good people on there and whatnot, but for me, nothing does it like meeting a guy randomly, and the romance behind that. That said, GOOD for you for getting creative with your doctor's recommendation. I'm really happy you're doing better mama. Although honestly, I have to say that the curiosity about what SLP did to scar you in this way is pretty strong, particularly because you guys were so far away from each other most of the time. Fucker.
Speaking of which, I wish I hadn't been lazy and had assisted therapy after Ray. I think i would have healed much quicker.
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