Starting Fresh

Sad by ~Spalid

Nothing is more pathetic than being depressed for a year.  You know life is passing you by and you don't care enough to do anything about it.  Friday was my 28th birthday.  The weeks leading up to it were terrible.  I honestly haven't had a rougher patch in my life, including the period following my divorce, and that shows me how bad I let it all get.

I know I used to smile easily, I didn't always feels like crying, and a hug or kind word from a friend didn't turn me into a mess.  I've finally admitted to myself that I've been suffering from depression.  I'm going to the doctor on Thursday.  I need a clean slate, I need to start fresh and remember how awesome my life is.  I just need some balance.  I know it will take time, I had a great birthday weekend and thats a good start.

Admitting theres an issue is the first step.  Now I just want it all better.