Frustrations

For the last year, my blog took a different turn, I got over the ex and moved on. It was all moonbeams and rainbows for a while. Things got hectic after a while and I took a step back from the blog, I just didn't have it in me to write. But I find in the tough moments I always come back to it. Its my outlet, my way of understanding the things that I am feeling and to get advice.

For the first time in the history of my blog, I feel the need to make some of it private, not always and not forever but its not the easiest thing to do on blogger. I have some thoughts and feelings that aren't for the random person who just happen by. So I'm feeling kind of stunted, like I need to write but can't, not the way I really want to.

I really just need a place to voice my feelings for a time, but I'm not quite sure how or where.

Juggling Act

It seems that starting school mid season was a seriously idiotic decision on my part. I've had to redo my study plan over and over again due to lack of time. Am I still glad I did it? Yes. But I am simultaneously cursing my very existence.

I think I have pretty much come to the conclusion that there is NO way I am sitting for my exam in May. They allow you to choose the year in which you take it and I am going to need a bit more time with the material based on how slow the progress has been so far. It really is daunting tackling this external program.

But it won't always be like this. I've made a really seriously huge decision about my life, one that I am not quite ready to talk about, but when it happens things will be different. In the meantime I have to juggle work, school, the Pirate, friends, family, etc. I'm not doing such a great job of it right now, but with time I'm sure it'll improve, right?

How does the rest of the world manage such hectic schedules?

And I'm back

It's been a while. I know. I've just had too much on my mind to really sit down and write it out. Between work (slowly killing me), school and my personal life, things have been a bit crazy. I have been shirking social outings in lieu of studying lately so truth be told I'm not sure I have such exciting stuff to report.

I did spend Thanksgiving in New York with the Pirate and it was great. We had our first turkey day together and our 12lber came out great.
It was maple glazed and delightful. We spent a lot of much needed face time together, went to a couple museums, hung out with some friends, he played the violin for me.


Overall it was great. My favorite part (aside from the obvious) was going to the Tim Burton exhibit at MOMA. The crowds there not so much but we I head back to NY in February with Marisol and go again hopefully they will have died down.


But now for the real reason why I am blogging today.

Today is my sisters birthday.

She is officially 29 years old and a huge pain in my ass but in the grand scheme of things I love her despite it all and to be honest I'm not sure I know anyone else who would put up with my bullshit. Happy Birthday Beeker!!!!!